Passed the threshold.
Feelings invading my body like a foreign army
A tsunami inside me,
Waking from within
Washing away the bludgeoning sin
No more idolising a heart made of tin
A sharp axis once pivoting unclear
Now comfortable with where x and y begin
Somehow, u and i became the same angle
closing in
Breaking the barriers of a soothingly thick
shell-suit of skin
Embraced by a fine balancing act of masculine and feminine
Sensations of a burnt flame, dare I say it.
A twin?
My perception of it all was waning,
wearing so thin
But the objects of my desire appeared to be protracted at every whim
Growing tired of fighting, I pleaded,
Protect me from what I want and what I don't
Done with being shallow, beginning to lean into my shadow
Self-absolved through declining the virtues of tempting sin
Softly surrendering to a soon-to-be whirlwind
Considering, admiring the pleasure and pain of adrenaline
Understanding that forfeiting all control can be a win
An opportunity to invoke the right kind of healing medicine
Searching for the right ways and the right words to love the yang to my yin