Sometimes, on a day like today
It feels like I'm caught between the sun and moon
My internal organs on display
Despondantly drifting through a weightless time and space
But the weight of uncertainty and restlessness leaves me heavy
Steeped in slopes of snow
Wanting my matter to easily flow
Wishing to melt away
I know myself apparently
But somehow my own feelings, emotions are their own puzzle
An enigma I spend learning and decoding
More than anything, I find it annoying
That understanding myself feels like work
Unapid labour that doesn't often reap rewards
Acknowledgement if I'm lucky
Who even am I?
I continue deliberating
Extra-terrestrial
A celestial sentiment sentimentally attached to a temporary existence
Subsumed and consumed by the simplicities and undefined intricacies of humanity
Conventions and ongoing tensions decided by Man
Men who lead by ego
Foregoing the lessons of life and cycles that chain us to the matrix of reality
Imprisonment cousined by principles shrouded in "legally"
Really it's because they don't see
You or me
As pools of sentience
No, we're just valuable tools being played by fools
Foolishly denying the people the option to choose
Continuing to uphold the systems
That lovingly nurture tyrannical rule
Cleverly disguised as breaking news
Our trust misguided
Our dreams chewed
Spat out and brewed
Into coffee or tea?
The extent of our daily options in this brief duality
With all that in mind
I urge myself not to feel so dismantled
About the growth and confusion within my cells and soul
A knowing sat at the pit of my core
And acceptance that more often than not
The burden of life is a blessing and peace of mind is not an eternal guarantee
To exist is sometimes a precious chore
Sometimes, on a day like today
It might just help to leave some questions at the door
Contemplation can take over
But I know that I'll never be sure